No Return

I finally managed to get my application sent off, after a catalogue of 'technical difficulties' that made me want to hurl my computer at the wall. I feel like there is no going back now; now that I have spoken to one of my panel and he knows I'm unhappy I can't carry on here, but if I don't managed to find a place through clearing, what then? I'm very tired and woozy from all the stress I've felt over the last few days. I had a very long chat with my parents on the phone, and they were very supportive. I think they are both relieved that I'm sounding much more positive about things now. I should speak to Donna, too- I need to find someone to take my room if I do go, because I'll still be liable for the rent.

I'm going down to Bude on sunday, and coming back tuesday. I've emailed a campsite: I found one that sounds like a mixture of peaceful serene views, and cheezy late-night family entertainment. I'm going looking for tranquility, but a bit of cheeze is always good when you need to forget yourself. Or am I trying to remember myself; I'm not sure. Anyway, my head is full of things like packing, cooking enough pasta for 2 days, route planning, bikni selection and anticipation, when it should be full of sorting my life out. What I really need is to do some work, and to get some sleep. I'm exhausted.